On Free Will Debate (part 4?) : The Final Comparison (I hope)

I think some unconscious impulse is forcing me to contemplate free will for so many hours with such force that I can't stop doing anything but writing about it. 


If we assume that free-will equals chaos (the neutral concept), then the only way that it's presence in existence makes sense is the big-bang. suddenly out of no where there is an explosion and BOOM 


A whole spectrum of infinite colors and sounds and aromas... (based on human experience) emerge out of nothingness.


What else can you call it but chaos? (again, the neutral concept or in other words a phenomena free from cause and effect and not the chaos advocated by the anarchist school of thought) 


So out of chaos was born order... the first cause created what we call the arrow of time and a deterministic world.


Now let's change our viewpoint to non-scientific child like curiosity :


Let's assume I have no information on scientific matters, haven't learnt words yet and can't deal with mathematical logic (Socratic Ontology)


I really tried but I can't do it unless there is some woods nearby I can go run in or take some peyote and wonder in the 11th dimension and act on instinct.


Ok, hang on a moment. let's analyze the possible outcomes of both free will and determinism : 

Determinism : 

Some people act smart

Some people act dumb 

Some people act violent and so on based on genetics, childhood influence, environment, biological interactions and unknown metaphysical influences

So if you define the self by free-will;

Nobody exists. only the big bang exists because as I said before free-will = chaos

If you define existence by being conscious 

Everybody exists and we are all the same, all one experiencing different bodies 

Free-Will : 

People choose to do good or bad things

Therefor part of the pain and pleasure in the world is caused by our choices

People are mostly in two groups : good and bad. and we all have responsibility for our actions.

What do you choose?